Nightmare Visionz

This is a rhyme I wrote the night before last and has quite a few words in it that you will notice I had to pick up a dictionary! lol I hope you enjoy it and if you keep up to date with these, I will be posting one in a day or so that even I found quite funny.( Not to be too big headed lol) I hope you enjoy. xxx

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Mental collisions that be making incisions

Deep in your subconscious

Infesting like monsters

Having you thinking of monsters

Now having unwanted-Dreams

Of torture,hearing screams

Wishes to wake and redeem

This torturing stream of the unseen

Feeling terrorized

Wanting open eyes

Sick from your minds sick side

Even tried but attempt subsides

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

Alone, at home, no phone

Chord's broken, unspoken

Dreams are joking that you've awoken

Now choking, a poking

In your back

Upside your head a smack

Feel a crack, crap

A nightmare attack

Mentally you invision making a decision

To get out the sack

Stop these nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Now on a mission

Got to make a decision

To escape this situation

Erasing

This mental invasion

Your minds inhabitation

Of a nightmare mutation

Knowing you'll be facing

Your own imagination

For this nightmarish mutation

No suicide

Die in sleep, die in life

A knife?

Think you should?

It'll be no good

Nightmares don't bleed blood

You ask me what I would-do?

I give you a clue

Help you through the situation facing you

Here is my plan

Invision something in your hand

A knife,gun or grand

Invite your mind to a land

Of sea and sand,it began

You now understand

This nightmare you created

All you've ever feared and hated

Mentally situated what your mind stated

Insinuated

You are the traitor

You could just be auspicious

Night visionz think you're delicious

Apparitions of the fictitious

Terror hides in all places

Tiny spaces

Somewhere your mind can't find because your mind's so spacious

Magically Herbidacious

Terror shows in many faces

And replaces reality in these cases

Nightmares are so pertinacious

You need to get thinking

Before your ship starts sinking

Won't hyave a chance of blinking

Make an exhibition

Of the decision that has you driven

And given you permission

To destroy this cretinism

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Prepare for coalition

Of your minds military division

Proud to cause convulsions

No illusion to the intruders intrusion

That gave you delusions

And frightening confusion

Of the nightmares infusion

Desecrated, hatred, slated but never debated

That it was wrongfully instated

That nightmare was annihilated

Awaking elated

Executed with precision

No need for ammunition

Back to dreams of serene scenes

Clean with a gleam of sunbeams & mountain streams

No more night vision competition

Life again living

Maybe go fishing?

No more need for wishing it's the end of the mission

Decisions, decisions and more decisions

No more Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Nightmare Visionz

Well that's the end of this entry and it would be most appreciated if you could give me some sort of feedback so I can make an improvement to my rhymes/lyrics. I really enjoyed writing this one and you may notice that I was sat with a dictionary for long periods of time to be able to write this, lol. I will be posting another entry very soon and hope you enjoyed reading this and all the others I've already posted. Thank you & take care. XXXXX

Start to Finish

I wrote this one day whilst thinking of the many times I've overdosed, trying to see it all from the perspective of all those I'd have left behind. Hope you enjoy xxx

Start to Finish

Finally I understand how I feel

Born and raised in Chesterfield

Did I get a good deal?

Deserve what I got?

Probably not, but I chose to take the smack,crack and pot

I nervously laugh

Strolling misguided down this lifetime path

Do the math?

I was just a mug

Addicted to the love of drugs bug

Looking up from the hole

The grave that was dug

I ain't no East,North,West or south side gangster

More like a jester or courtyard prankster

I want to do one thing, that is to thank ya

For the life I'd been given, the life that was gave

Too late to be saved

Looking up from my grave

I wasn't all bad, wasn't all good

Wondering how loved ones felt,stood where they stood

Seeing a husband, son, brother, dead in a box in the mud

I know it wasn't clever or fun

28yrs and it's over I'm done

Early in life a start to take drugs

Ending up just a mug

Take, take, take, never did give

Did I really deserve to live?

Or should I have gone and died when I did?!

No fear, No bat of eyelid

Knew what was coming, my life slowly slid

No point praying when not a believer

Why have a faith when a taker and dealer?

No dial tone any more,not on the receiver

If only, If at least I had tried

Never have lied or maybe just cried

When my sister had died or at least on the inside

I may have been better, a life not the same

I could've died without shame

Instead of leaving it all for my family to claim

Found with a needle still in my vein

Me, a car on a cliff, foot on the pedal

No one got a medal

Just a foot on a pedal to the metal

Dust of my past in their faces

Just a disgrace, no way to erase

Or get rid of that foul taste

The odd drug free days

The pain, cramps and sweating

Never forgetting

No explanation

Wasn't temptation, Living 12miles from civilization

Report from the medical examination

He was an addict, was no one off occasion

Lay here in my box and look at the ceiling

Feeling no feelings

Decaying not healing

Wishing I had a chance to give them a clean husband,son,brother

I shot up from beneath a soaking wet cover

First thought to my head

Why make me suffer, I'm already dead

A grade A recurring nightmare

Awoken from my pit of despair

I'll share

Haunting me till the day I do finally rest

This nightmare reminds me to be at my best

A Test? I won't stress

But forever I'll suffer

Helping me through is my wife and I love her

Lex helps me get rid of the cravings

Saving, me from suffering pain

Driving me insane

I couldn't have wished for a better gain

Lex has my heart and it carries the stain

Of an opiate life, I will complain

But won't go that way again

I will refrain

Still I crave, some days

It passes

Thinking of my grave an my losses

I couldn't live without my wife she's so precious

In death, nothing is left

But I hope I live long

Our love will stay strong

Nothing goes wrong

Till I die I 'll feel this way forever

From !'Start to Finish' I've never felt better.

Hoping that you enjoyed reading that I am looking forward to my next entry already. Thanks for reading and take care. XXXXX

Microscopic Madness!

I sat thinking at the early hours of the other morning, what could my next set of lyrics be about? Then it just popped into my mind with a bang like one of those little fire cracker thingy majigs that you used to get in joke shops. OCD, I've suffered with serious ocd since I was very young, think that sharing a bedroom with a very messy and disgusting brother might have played a part in it somewhere. Anyway, I hope that you enjoy this as much as I enjoyed writing it. I have tried to mix a sort of humorous feel to this as well as the truth to the extent of my disorder. Enjoy....

Microscopic

Madness!

Monday through to sunday

Midnight to midnight

Everyday can be a fun day

Be it dark or light, until It's out of sight

I won't ever feel right

In a constant fit of hysteria

Always I've felt inferior, this time superior

When I kill bacteria!

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

I will do as I assured ya

Practice what I preach, bring out the bleach

Teach and taught ya.

As I lay upon my back in the sack

In the bed I'm lying in

My mind I rack, I think I'll crack

on with the ironing

Ideas begin flying in

Washing in the washer

All including socks

Ticking off the roster

No time for watching clocks

I have to wash the pots

Finish no time soon, all rooms to vacuum

I don't feel gloom and doom

I feel elated, In my bleach cocoon

Killing things I've always hated

Bacteria related!!!

Mass hysteria

Don't be inferior,become superior

Kill bacteria

Kill bacteria

Get rid of all invisible

Destroy the microscopic

To the naked eye invisible

Got my cleaning gun and cocked it

To me germs are visible,unarmed and erasable

All household waste I got's biodegradable

I love keeping things clean

See dust, trust Mr. Sheen

Everything must gleam

No rest till nothing's left

And no evidence It's been

You can always trust, I ain't the type to fuss

Over dust, kill it yes I must

I haven't got the time to phone ya

Love to smell ammonia

From dusk to dawn, I was born

To be a cleaning loner!

Each wipe I like, not a fright as muck don't bite

Surgical white

Already won the fight

Mass hysteria

Don't be inferior, become superior

Kill bacteria

Kill bacteria

All shall be destroyed

Filling in the void I've had since a boy

I won't ever avoid, cleaning is my joy

Cupboards,walls,doors and carpets

Bleach diluted

Might just mark it

If all is clean, all is unpolluted

I don't lie, give it a try, my methods undisputed

Cleaned so much my hands are sore

Scrubbing floors leave my knees raw

Clock says it has just gone four

But there ain't no stopping

Still got mopping

Someone's at the door

I can hear them knocking

My mission is what I'm always wishing

Bet bacteria into submission

They're all unforgiven

Kill each and every germ,maybe I could earn

To put my feet up as I should

Once they're gone for good

Instead I'm always stood

In a flood of sweated blood

Mass hysteria

Don't be inferior, become superior

Kill bacteria

Kill bacteria

Some may call this torture

For me it heals pain

Using soapy water, removing the stain

Stopping the strain,

On my heart, needing time apart

A small rest from the microscopic pest

That I hate, I detest

Soon they will be gone, leaving none

Not a single one

Finally I'll sit

All have died

Then shit, motherfuckers went and multiplied

I thought suicide as I cried

A thought crossed my mind

I had seen a sign

It wasn't flammable, it was corrosive

If you don't read the label you won't know this

It reads to avoid contact with eyes and skin

If you spill on you,you will feel burning

Them germs will be turning

Running scared

No where to hide, No more shared

Finding their lair

Meeting their demise, A smile on my face and bacteria will die!!!

No more hysteria

They are the inferior and I'm superior

Death and dead are bacteria!

Knowing they'll be back

Not yet though so I get back into the sack

Catch up on sleep I lack

Dreams of clean

All serene

I close my eyes, then all is black....

I hope that you have enjoyed this entry and another one will be posted soon. I am now off to do a spot of cleaning. lol. If you would be kind enough to comment I'd appreciate it and criticism is welcome, I won't be offended. If any of you feel that you would like to suggest a topic that you would like me to write about please feel free to leave suggestions with your comments. Thank you and keep smiling. ;-) xxx

Canibalistic Natures

This is a step into what goes on in my mind every now and then, hopefully you won't be disgusted. Enjoy. x

Cannibalistic Natures

You won't know and you won't ever

Hear anything as never

Get anything as clever

as the lyrics that I spit and endeavour

You get a quiver and through your body a shiver

When the rhymes I deliver

Cause you pain in your liver

Floating from my mouth and through your veins like a river

Float like a vessel, a boat

Floating on the blood bleeding from your throat

Like the shit that I slit on a sacrificial goat

I'll wear your face as a mask and skin as a coat

Fear me and the rhymes that I've wrote

Your face turns red at the words I have said

Then I slide across your throat with a blade like a sled

Sliced like bread, now you dead

On the floor with a hanging off head

And I'm at your house upstairs in your bed

In your bed with your wife

Causing strife, shall I use this knife?

She screamed twice for me to spare her life

I sliced,she got diced

Left like tripe, Nice!

I was outside, went back in

Trimmed her down slim so she'd fit inside a bag for the bin

Shit! What a mess she was in

Grinned an evil grin and popped Oxycontin

Started to saw and hack off a limb

Laughed at the sin, almost fin

Finito, finished

Certified lunatic, responsibility diminished

Trepidation,anxiety and elation

A literal wave of mutilation

Two peoples dedication end in assassination

From my hallucination because of a drug I'd taken

Don't be mistaken

Twisted and sick was my prognosis

Which lead to the dread of my real diagnosis

A lunatic, psycho with psycho with psychosis

Voices in my head that have halitosis

"Got to go!" I already know this

That's them voices in my head, talking shit like I said

"Gotta go, gotta go!"

Adrenaline flow

Felt good, blood,shallow grave in the mud

"Go,go,go!"

Couldn't though

Felt right, in the midnight moon glow.

Are you mesmerized?

I'll get recognized when I cut out your eyes

Be it I'm despised, It's how I'm characterized

I'll prove there's no lies when you meet your demise

I'm a narcissist so I'm narcissistic

I take the biscuit and that's realistic

When it comes down to me being sadistic

Mutilate? Hate? Yeah fuck it I'd risk it

You ask me not to kill you? You being sarcastic?

You'll be found dead in your bed, head in a basket!

Limbs stretched and snapped like elastic

I'll fuck you up so bad, it will be a closed casket

I'm just like Hannibal Lecter the cannibal

A fucking animal

No conscience, so no remorse

I slash fast and gash you at the speed of Porsche

Using your corpse for my second course

You have been dusted

I'll never get busted

On the landing, a knife I be branding

I lusted

Are you disgusted? I put toes,fingers, nose into custard

Cut them off with a scalpel that was rusted

I can't be trusted

Grind bones into powder for mustard

Skin I'm trying to be frying, next man dying

No evidence or time in the coop

I ate them all and made them into soup!

Used skin and eyes for pies, my next meal cries

I sigh sighs, then smile as he slowly dies

People tell lies

What I say is true

When I lyrically do what I do

Need to make stew, coming for you

Before I do, I drink this crimson brew

Leave your wallet and purse

No need for a hearse

Nurse!Nurse!Nurse?

Too late, met her fate, got ate, great on a plate!

You'll never escape

You won't survive to remember this

Impossible to escape my premises!

No need for enema's

You'll be shitting yourselves

when you see what goes on in them jars on my shelf

Note to ones self

I'll eat any mother fucker, rappers or ravers

Psychopathic lyrics,I'll chew you up and savour

Then spit this sick shit back at you in all kinds of rhyme flavours

I'm like the creatures from the film "Decent"

Bitch I'm hell bent

Sending shit that I've sent

Maybe give up for lent

Don't think I didn't mean the that I meant what I meant

Black,White,English,Spanish

My lyrical skills are leaving me famished

On the back of milk cartons,you turning up vanished

Missing, wishing that you never had been dissin'

My lyrics will teach ya

Show I didn't deceit ya

After I'll secrete ya

On the microphone mother fucker yo I'd fucking eat ya!!!!

Ciao...

Well another one done, if you can't tell I was angry when I wrote this well I was! I still hope that you enjoyed it and look forward to the next. Hope you're well and take care. XXXXX

Lyrical Slaps,Traps and Crap!

This is a bundle of lyrics that I felt the need to write early this morning. As they're from the top of my head please remember that the top of my head is the part I use the least! lol. Enjoy. X

Lyrical Slaps, Traps & Crap!

Straight from the womb, into a room

Life just begun and I was already doomed

Putting brown powder on a spoon,

Opiate tomb

Life ruined and cocooned, filled with gloom

Physically ok and foreseeing the day

above, in the sky a grey

Rain cloud began to loom

My life paid the way

For my stupid mistakes, half baked

From my heavy drug intake

First trait was, I was straight up filled with hate

Too late, I was bait

Heard the squeak of a sneaker

Grabbed by the creeper

It was the Grim Reaper

Life taker, soul keeper

Took my life with one swipe which diced,

Sliced me with his scythe

My mental anger, Ended!

Beheaded and befriended

To my new decapitation, no more frustration

Disorientated,feeling elated

No more hatred

A headless mutilation

Granted, as I was passed the plate

On it, a letter to decapitate. My fate

Stopped the feelings of hate and heads less weight

My mind overspilled out of the wound that made

A slice just above my shoulder blade

No longer will you hear me complain

The voices I contained have been drained

I was insane, now maimed

Self destruction and instructions

Claimed

I had Aliens instruct

They'd be to blame for my victims mutilated look

My mind was fucked, transmitters in my veins

In my ears,chest, legs and brain

Demanding

Commanding, a loss of understanding

Was this reality or a delusion?

Confused into confusion

Had I been subjected to an illusion

Abducted, Alien intrusion

Speaking of this put me in an institution

I hoped to awake with the solution

Mind split and polluted by pollution

Deciding and dividing

Truth from proof?

Mentally declining

Hiding in the life I had escaped

Too late, I was drowning in a lake

Big mistake as the lake was "The Lake of Despair"

I didn't care, losing air

Rather like "The Chair"

Tied down, instead I'll drowned

I had a dance

In a trance, this is pants

Before the reaper swung the scythe

Ending my life

Voices gone, decapitated

No more demeaning commands

Of hatred,out of my hands

A grin from the slim brother Grim

Gave me blueprints to my plans

They were lies,never seen by my eyes

Free from mental torture but having my my demise

Was it wise to have died by the Grim Reaper Scythe?

Deformed and decapitated pun I'd become

Headless, unable to cry

Even if I could, where's my head to dry my eyes?

Couldn't laugh, couldn't sigh

Why? Why? Why?

Giving up, I lay back upon the floor

Awoken by a bang and slam of a door!

Head still attached

No stitches, not a scratch

An egg that was hatched in my mind still detached

Unlatched without a catch

Still mentally attracts

Despicable acts, evil thoughts

Nothing really changed, still mentally deranged

No longer right and distraught

Torture, die,revive, torture, die, revive

Why do I survive in this web of lies

A life of screams and cries, cries and screams

terrifying dreams

Nothing as it seems

Inside, I decide to put my two minds aside

Always hide, never confide

Only if I die from suicide, you will then realize

I tried to conquer paranoia and frustration

An Alien invasion, I'll send an invitation

Auditory hallucinations, Ha

Written on paper, coping with the caper

Day to day to day yeah

A tortured mind, malevolent behaviour

I'll try to be kind and keep things in my mind

Keeping an equilibrium like balance

But if I feel hate and violence

I'll put pen to paper and suffer it in silence..........

I hope that you enjoyed this post, or just thought of it as creative. lol. I will probably post another in a day or two. Next one involves HINT: Cannibals!!! Take care XXX

This is for Lexi ( Keep Trying!)

These are some of the lyrics that I thought would be a good way of expressing how I was feeling before meeting my wife Lexi. I have put them in a way as to say to people who feel like giving up, "Keep Trying!". I was ready to give up on everything until Lexi came into my life. I had already got my suicide and everything prepared. Lex has given me the feeling of enjoyment in life and her friends who have accepted me have also shown me, "Life is a wonderful thing, Embrace it while you can!". I hope yo enjoy......

Ode To Lexi(Keep Trying,Don't Give Up!)

Ladies and gents,please stay sitting

You may feel faint from the words that I'm spitting

Trying to get as many syllables to fit in

Each line I say to you now

Some say ok and others ask me how?

How do I do what I do!

Then write it down when I've been through what I've been through?

It all began when my mind split into two

I started rhyming words even I didn't know I knew

Flowing from my soul and over my lips to you

I'm not mad,I ain't crazy

I may have been once but I'm no Slim Shady!

Everyone knew I was different since being a baby

Knowing my demise and thinking what will fucking save me?

I got offered a helping hand

From a big horned heavy set Red Man

He filled me with hatred, gave me a pocket full of sand

My head filled with torment and a hope to kick the can

I had a nasty drug fuelled habit

Not funny, no money and a life worth shit

More than I could chew was what I had bit

Stuck for a lifetime in a self loathing pit

I felt sick, had to sit

Felt vile and the bile, I got a taste of it

Heavy drug abuse left me stuck on an eternal trip

Rotting like fruit but fortunate I am the pip

I'm on the edge and all it takes is one slip

Losing my mind, man I got to get a grip

Will I ever feel safe to walk down a street

and maybe stand on my own two feet?

Learn the meaning of life and turn down the heat?

Keep what I've learnt and remember what to keep!

Get some sleep, take a sleeper

I was to afraid that I'd meet the Reaper

Begging, screaming

Paranoid to the point there was nothing less demeaning

I wanted to be trusted so agreed to drug screening

Negative results for all the drugs I used to take

A constant reminder for my stupid mistakes

It's Birthday and no fucking cake

A massive head ache and as usual I'm late

great!

And just for fucks sake,

My mind & body couldn't cope with the intake

When and why or maybe maybe never

I might have a chance to put an end to this terror

If I can just find the secret lever

My suffering will end from what my mind does endeavour

Switch off the shit that makes me the error

"Error!" "Reload Page!"

This is what my mind repeatedly says

I'm only 23 but look 49 in age

It makes me feel caged and fills me with rage

A tainted mind,soul and heart

Was once one but then was ripped apart

From the start my mental health diminished

Don't recall the beginning but prepared for the finish!

I release my frustrations and shit I don't like

Write them down on paper as I don't have a mic

I suppose it's better than the light of a crack pipe

You can take class C's A's and B's and have 'em

And if I was to ever slip and trip taking another dip inside that cavern

I'd end up a thug,

A waste of space mug

Hooked again on the drug that almost left me in the mud

Inside of the hole that I myself had dug

Being feasted upon by the worst of bugs

Can I be saved

Before I end up in my grave

Because of being a slave to a money making trade?

Dealers don't care it's your life gave

Left to fade into the life that you made!

My life felt like I was on a turn table

Without a gap

Just a trap and slap

The excuse that I ain't able

Too pathetic to escape this vicious circle

I woke every morning feeling shit

Steal something quick so I don't get sick

And was it all worth that one lousy hit?

And the same tomorrow,you don't want a life like this

Never a hit and always a miss

Day after day taking the piss

Another punch in the face from a class A fist! Are you getting the jist?

Wishing for a piece of pie so humble

Instead I got a cookie that did fuck all but crumble

Words I spoke came out in a mumble

A trip and shit, I'm heading for a tumble

Leaving me where? Do I really care?

Sitting here in a pit of despair

Trapping me in a institution

Is this an illusion, alien intrusion, just a delusion?

Confusion

Voices commanding me to do what I don't want to do

If I disobey I get pain through & through

Five years later, still incarcerated, slated

I'm the cheese waiting to be grated

I then felt unusually elated

Said to myself that I'll do what I can

Try and fix what I had caused when the shit hit the fan

I shed a lot of weight from all the crap I ate

I was so greedy I would've if I could've eaten the plate

Kept the weight away and bad food I was refraining

from eating that crap and focused on my training

Physically, mentally better, posting a mental lyrical letter

To my subconscious not to forget

Mind and body ready and set

Left my home of medium secure

Hoping my plan hadn't a flaw

When I get free I will go and score, ending my life just once more!

I met someone who left me unsure

Of my plan and opened a door

I always tried to smile but inside I was hurting

My entire life was what I'll be forever regretting

This person, she showed me the way

Kept me close by so that I wouldn't stray

Visited me day after day, my heart felt strange but in a good way

Indescribable so much that words cannot say

There was a day she was unable to visit

It'd be ok, one day, I could live it

I had a hug for her but was unable to give it

Feelings I couldn't describe, then I realized

Tears I was unable to hide as I cried

To whom can I confide,

Imagining me and her kissing

Feeling sad because it was her I was missing

Her name, Lexi, so sexy and never had she kept me

Hidden from the feelings that she had to let me

Know all along, please I need forgiving

6months of hints that she'd been giving

I needed a swift kick up the ass, we spoke of our pasts as we sat on the grass

How shit they were, she held my hand I held hers

Hoping that she wouldn't notice my tears

From insecure fears

Never did I think that she would be my wife and life

would be great, no hate

It don't get given on a plate

You have to work for it bit it's well worth the wait

No if it's rainy or outside it's grey

It's always to me a sunny day

I love my life and I love living

Thanks to Lexi for helping and giving

A meaning of a life worth while

Guaranteed to to win the race, first place

To the very last mile

So whenever you think you can't go on, remember these few things to be done

You get your fair share of bastards and bitches

Bruised emotions and scars that won't need stitches

Glitches, then you stuck in the ditches

But some day be it grand, comes a helping hand

Life is unpredictable and not explainable

But one thing that is obtainable

A fact that is sustainable

and that is there is soulmate for all

A long long run is that last mile

But worth it at the end because waiting is love and smile!!!

For anyone who got sick of reading that halfway through I do apologise. I get carried away sometimes and believe it or not I have shortened this version. Just imagine it a blog entry but rhyming all the way. Hope you enjoyed. I have to dedicate this one to my wonderful wife Lexi, who has given me the inspiration to write down my feelings although they be in rhyme. Love you always Lex. Take care all. xxx