Some of these lyrics are of past experience. This rhyme is referring to my Schizophrenia and drug use. Hope that you enjoy reading it. lol ;-) x
Conspiracy of a Broken mind
My rhymes are like a friend to me
close though like an enemy
nothing ever comes for free
open minded in two mind I be
a Schizophrenic with auditory hallucinogenic
voices I be hearing and believing
that I need peeling from the ceiling
I need healing from this feeling I be feeling
I'm kneeling
praying, hoping that the voices stop saying
shit that ain't appealing
would you be my friend again?
with a life like a broken fence!
That needs mending, so they sending, the men,
they leave my swinging like a pendulum
hoping for the end again
giving you my hands,
wishing that the sands,
of time, give me a life without crime
but there's a very thin line
between good and evil,evil and good
sands running low I'll soon be in the mud
hourglass will break soon, being a goon
putting smack upon the spoon
I was a pawn
in a game of life or death
dying on your lawn
believing I be breathing what was believed to be my last breath
mind filled with tension
forgetting to mention I was in another dimension
left on a section,no direction
stuck with a mental dissection
trying to find, wandering blind
hoping that I could maybe bind
This Conspiracy of a Broken Mind!
Conspiracy of a Broken Mind
Glad I have no son or daughter
left in the flow like running water
inheriting this mental torture
if I did as I was told, by the voices I behold
I'd be growing old in an institutional mould
soul sold, mind split, twofold
never knowing if it's day or night
only clue one's dark,the other light
left or right? one or two?
black or blue? Mind split, shit, I've come unglued
What should I do? I'm screwed
imagine that you're me and I'm you
how do you think you'd feel hearing shit that isn't real?
stolen thoughts not yours to steal
would your wounds heal?
if some sad joke of a bloke dealt you that deal
I bet you'd be sad and feeling bad
maybe mad, even glad
that you'd been had by your own fucking dad!?
I take these lyrics and I stab
using them like knives
for him instead of old wives
tales
two minds set sail
one to succeed and one to fail
off the rails I end up in jail
convicted no bail, hanging on a nail
feeling them impale
me with an indefinite section
winning the election, shown no affection
frowned upon cos of my life's reflection
controlled by thoughts that aren't mine
crossing the line by being unkind,
time after time never seeing the sign
run into the ground by the daily grind
This Conspiracy of a Broken Mind!
Conspiracy of a Broken Mind
Lot forgot from smoking pot
right before my eyes I didn't realize I'd lost the plot
some say what?
what I say is babble, I jump on the saddle
into a lyrical battle
I always win the haggle, a dibble and a dabble
spitting out words like the champion of Scrabble
all my thoughts are lyrical, I always hope to see that miracle
so, so sweet but not to put upon your cereal
if I told you it to the end you wouldn't hear it all
you'd be incapable as took the scrape and fall
never even got a call
banging up against the wall
my head, blood red from the words I said
mentally I'm filled with dread and hatred
as I have oxygen force fed
not breathing on my bed, almost dead
almost a fatality, it was a minor technicality
my mind had split in two & exited reality
thankfully
I'm now the person that I chose to be
lost a lot who were so close to me
but now I see I wasn't far from a lobotomy
only if the voice had have got to me
I now am free and back in society
sobriety
don't even try and lie to me
I can see, no longer blind
try and be kind, if you look you'll find
the contract that I signed
lets me be a lyricist
never having ever missed the part that had me pissed
growing like a cyst
wanting to cut my wrists
that if I ever do another crime
turn round and say that it ain't mine
lobotomy would be the fine
ended with a knife or nine
because my minds entwined
This Conspiracy of a Broken Mind!
Conspiracy of a Broken Mind
Conspiracy of a Broken Mind
Conspiracy of a Broken Mind
Life line, Death warrant unsigned
My very own conspiracy of a Broken Mind!!!
I hope that those who read this have enjoyed it and look forward to my next. Take care xxx
